Hi I'm Nika & I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22.

"I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."

Reading List of 2013:
the perks of being a wallflower [x]
every day [x]
The Death Cure [ ]
The Fault In Our Stars [ ]
Looking For Alaska [ ]
Will Grayson, Will Grayson [ ]
The Book Thief [ ]
Silence [ ]
Finale [ ]
to put it simply

It’s so stupid that I think about you at least once a day. I think its cause I love you or loved you, I really don’t know. I have to stop myself all the time from trying to contact you. I deleted everything. There’s really no way for me to talk to you even if I really wanted to. You’re not good for me. You don’t care about me. But here I am still thinking about you every night before I sleep. I’ve never loved anyone before so maybe I never actually loved you or love you, who knows. What I do know is that when I think about you my heart hurts. It hurts cause I miss you and it hurts because of all the things you said. Cause you’re right, why should you waste your time on a girl that doesn’t even matter. That’s what keeps me strong, that you said that cause I do matter. You said sorry and you’d make it up to me but you can’t forget when someone tells you something like that. I think it’s okay if I miss you for a little while longer. I’ll stop missing you one day, hopefully on my own terms but maybe it could be because I finally met someone that does think I matter. 

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15,446 notes - 3 weeks ago -
Right in the feels. 
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📷: @jasonsensati0n #minimalism #bloodorange #youresopretentious #pacificbeach #sandiego


I’m still upset about Borders closing

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How do you get so numb that you willingly let someone use you? I miss the old me.

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I get really jealous when I read these stories about couples who have a crazy romantic love story. How do you meet the love of your life in the third grade then be separated for years and see each other and fall in love all over again? How does that happen and I’m just here and I can’t get anyone to fall in love with me? It’s such an empty feeling to realize that I don’t know what it is to love or be loved by someone. After so many failed attempts at dating I don’t really want to put myself out there anymore. So whoever you are, come find me. I’m waiting, a little less patient than I used to be but I’ll still be waiting. 

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@ insendia