Hi I'm Nika & I don't know about you but I'm feeling 22.

"I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."

Reading List of 2013:
the perks of being a wallflower [x]
every day [x]
The Death Cure [ ]
The Fault In Our Stars [ ]
Looking For Alaska [ ]
Will Grayson, Will Grayson [ ]
The Book Thief [ ]
Silence [ ]
Finale [ ]
to put it simply
"Just because you miss someone, it doesn’t mean you should go back to them. Sometimes you have to just keep missing them until you wake up one morning and realise that you don’t anymore."Unknown (via exoticwild)

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"There’s like a million different ways to say “I love you,”
“put your seat belt on,”
“watch your step,”
“get some rest,” …you’ve just got to listen."
Unknown  (via

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"He was not my boyfriend. On the other hand, he wasn’t just a friend either. Instead, our relationship was elastic, stretching between those two extremes depending on who else was around, how much either of us had to drink, and other varying factors. This was exactly what I wanted, as commitments had never really been my thing. And it wasn’t like it was hard, either. The only trick was never giving more than you were willing to lose."Unknown (via drapetomania)

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I put this together before I knew we would end things. These are some pictures we took on our last date before you left for Japan. I’m so thankful for you. I was a mess before I met you. You fixed me. You made me a better version of myself. I’m a tiny bit of a mess right now cause I miss you so much. I miss the feeling of you holding me. I miss your laugh. I miss sleeping next to you. I miss waking up to you. I miss talking to you. Even till now you’re still the only person I wanna talk to about my day. Like you said, we’re soulmates. Life’s not fair and as much as it hurts you don’t always end up with your soulmate. Anyways remember how I told you to make that last kiss good? Thank you for making it amazing.

There are mornings that I wake up and I just feel empty. It’s only been about a year since I finally mustered up enough self esteem to agree to my very first date. As of today I’ve been on more first dates than I can even remember and 80% of them ended with the guy trying to persuade me to have sex with him. One in particular ended in sexual assault. I get it now. How people who are victims in these situations are so hush hush. You feel so much shame after something like that happens to you. But why? You weren’t the one that did anything wrong. Not every body is strong enough to defend themselves in these scenarios. Guys are strong and when they have you pinned down you’ve lost complete control and you feel so helpless. He can do whatever he wants to you at that point. It’s the scariest feeling to know that no matter how much you scream and try to get away, that you can’t. You’re stuck. All you can do is yell and hope to God he realizes what he’s doing and stops. I was lucky. He stopped probably just a few seconds before he would have raped me. Lucky enough to have not been raped but I still suffered through other forms of sexual assault inflicted by him. I went home and my jeans were ripped and I was bleeding. It’s been a few months now. I should have told someone sooner. I should have reported him. But I was ashamed to have to explain how I got myself into that situation. But wait… I never got myself into that situation. He put me in that situation. That was his fault. He attacked me and for what reason? “You’re just so sexy, I can’t help myself.” Is that a good enough reason to disregard the fact that I said no? That I had to scream and beg for you to stop. I shouldn’t have been ashamed. I was a victim of assault and I should have spoken up. That was my only mistake.

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I shouldn’t have laughed as hard as i did.



I want a relationship that’s just like super cool friendship with like kissing

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My mind is a scary place right now, but my actions are what’s really terrifying.

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We both knew it. That that was the very last kiss. Last touch. Last moment. We just didn’t want to say it so we said see you soon, but we both knew that that would be the last moment we would ever lay eyes on each other. It’s not that we were in denial, we just wanted all those lasts to be unforgettably amazing so that those moments wouldn’t be consumed by the sadness of reality. I can still feel you holding my hand in those last moments before we had to let go and letting go was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. You didn’t look back after you walked away after our last kiss. Maybe you wanted the last time you saw me to be of us face to face holding each other and not of me leaving in tears. I watched you walk away hoping to God I’d see you walking towards me again someday, hoping with all my heart that this wouldn’t be the last of us.
@ insendia