It’s so stupid that I think about you at least once a day. I think its cause I love you or loved you, I really don’t know. I have to stop myself all the time from trying to contact you. I deleted everything. There’s really no way for me to talk to you even if I really wanted to. You’re not good for me. You don’t care about me. But here I am still thinking about you every night before I sleep. I’ve never loved anyone before so maybe I never actually loved you or love you, who knows. What I do know is that when I think about you my heart hurts. It hurts cause I miss you and it hurts because of all the things you said. Cause you’re right, why should you waste your time on a girl that doesn’t even matter. That’s what keeps me strong, that you said that cause I do matter. You said sorry and you’d make it up to me but you can’t forget when someone tells you something like that. I think it’s okay if I miss you for a little while longer. I’ll stop missing you one day, hopefully on my own terms but maybe it could be because I finally met someone that does think I matter.